Syukur

Ni kali ke tiga menulis blog hari ini... apa2 yg terlintas, ditulis saja...mana tahu ada manfaatnya..

Terpanggil untuk menulis sebelum tidur malam ini...kisah mengenai syukur..

Dalam Al quran- banyak sangat ayat pasal syukur ini... salah satunya..

"Dan apakah sangkaan orang-orang yang mengada-adakan kata-kata dusta terhadap Allah, (tidakkah mereka akan diazabkan) hari kiamat kelak? Sebenarnya Allah jualah yang melimpahkan kurnia kepada manusia (meliputi rezeki pemberianNya dan hukum-hukum Syarak yang diturunkanNya), tetapi kebanyakan mereka tidak bersyukur. (Surah Yunus : 60)

Sangat betul apa yang dinyatakan dalam Al Quran.... kebanyakan kita kurang bersyukur, termasuklah diri aku sendiri...padahal banyak betul pemberian yang Maha Esa..

Manusia, kita biasanya nampak apa yang kurang sahaja...tapi tidak mengira betapa banyaknya apa yang telah diterima..

Kenapa aku menulis entri ini? Sebagai muhasabah diri...yang kengkadang terlepas pandang untuk bersyukur...moga-moga dengan entri ini dapat mengingatkan aku untuk bersyukur, untuk lebih memuji Nya diatas segala pemberian Nya kepada ku...

Banyak perkara berlaku akhir-akhir ini...menguji ramai orang yang aku kenal... sekelip mata sahaja jika Allah mahu untuk menarik balik rezeki yang diberinya...sekelip mata sahaja jika Allah mahu memalukan sesiapa, sekelip mata juga Allah jika mahu dapat menggoncangkan rumahtangga seseorang...sekelip mata juga Allah dapat menarik nyawa yang paling rapat disisi...

Kadang-kadang kita rasa, masalah kitalah yang paling besar di dunia...tiada taranya lagi...sebab itu lah ada kes-kes bunuh diri...baginya masalah itulah segala-galanya...padahal Islam mengajar kita akhirat itulah segala-galanya....

Teringat berborak ngan Azie dan Abg Tariq di suatu petang...sehabisnya phD ni akan mematangkan si pelajar tadi...lagi lama buat phd lagi matang jadinya...tapi nak mengharungi phD ni perlukan spiritual yg kukuh, tegap dan mantap... sebab itu penulis perhatikan even chinese student dalam research group yg sama sgt aktif ke gereja...masakan tidak, banyak dugaan boleh melanda sepanjang tempoh belajar...jika spiritual dan semangat yang tidak kuat, terjadilah seperti seorang pelajar Cina di UKM (kalau x silap) yang membunuh dirinya dan 2 org anak nya gara2 phD...di UK juga terdapat pelajar melayu yang cerai berai disebabkan phd...di nottingham university , ada pelajar cina yang terjun drp bangunan researchnya krn pHD...dasyat-dasyat....

Dalam Islam, apabila kita di landa masalah, kita di ajar untuk take a step back, get your senses, look at other people yang mengalami kesusahan lebih drp diri kita dan ingatlah pada Ilah yg Satu.... membawa kita kepada syukur...bersyukur kerana Allah masing sayang pada kita kerana masih memberi hidayah dan jalan2 hidayah kepada kita...bersyukur kerana masih diberikan peluang untuk membuktikan keimanan kita...

Apalah masalah kita ini dibandingkan mereka di Gazza? Saban hari melihat mereka yg disayangi meninggal dunia didepan mata...Teruk betul kita ni...selfish!! Padahal masalah saudara kita lagi teruk yg lagi perlu diamati...

Apa yang pasti... di setiap peringkat PhD ini, Allah mengajar aku...mengajar aku satu persatu konsep dan menanamkan dalam diriku... aku masih ingat ketika Allah mengajarku konsep redha (tapi itu cerita lain)...dan kini aku sedang belajar erti syukur........

Paris Hilton BBF?

Tadi buka tv....tak ingat dah channel mana...pastu cerita tajuk Paris Hilton BBF, British Best Friend... what??!!

Well, personally i think it is a stupid programme...sometimes i wonder, apa nak jadi kat manusia ni...to those who don't know about this programme, its about Paris Hilton (kunun2nya a hollywood star) yang sedang dalam pencarian best friend di Britain.. so dia buat macam realiti tv la...ada beberapa org perempuan seme bercita2 menjadi Paris tu nye best friend..so with few series akan ada pembuangan orang drp 12 org sampai jadi sorang je best friend tu...

And my impression was ???!!!??!! ....exactly... perempuan2 peserta dlm siri tu menangis2 tak berhenti sebab terpilih utk dibuang...menangis macam kehilangan direction of life! kesian betul...i cant grasp that manusia boleh jadi camtu...menjerit2...kesian kesian..

begitulah rakyat UK di sogokkan dengan cerita2 camni...tak membina minda langsung dan merosakkan lagi minda lagi adala..hidup nak bersuka2...nak berglamor sahaja...hidup dalam alam tipuan semata2....

Jangan la kita pun terikut2 mereka...alangkah ruginya...sedangkan banyak lagi tanggungjawab perlu di selesaikan...amanah sebagai khalifah bumi yang perlu di tunaikan.....sedar lah rakan rakan sekalian...

Aku dan MSc student

Entry ni untuk share my experience membantu seorang masters student...

Aku telah di pertanggungjawabkan untuk mengajar sorang masters student ni utk buat projectnya...di sebabkan projeknye itu banyak kene mengena dgn phd yg tengah di buat sekarang...cumanya...i wont benefit much from his results sbb kebanyakan result tu, saya or previous student dah buat...so cumanya tolong guide dia buat project tu...

You might as why kene guide masters project ni pulak? well, my supervisor thought that I will benefit from the experience of 'supervising' a student as i will go back to IIUM and inshaAllah one day supervise a student..

This masters student, for the purpose of confidentiality, will call him LX. He is a chinese from mainland China... when the first time I saw him in the lab, showing him how to do the electrical measurements....well, I can hardly understand what he said...his english was disastrous..the pronunciation uhuh....i had him repeating some sentences many times just to understand what he was saying.... and many times too, if i asked him to do A, he will do B...so imagine doing a masters project like that....

Time progresses slowly... and with time his english getting better and better (maybe we (my SV and i, forced him to speak in english) and he can do most of the measurements, only once in a while i had to go in there and help...

He passed all his examination, surprisingly...so the only hurdle for him now is his project...unfortunately for him, he got a project which is slighly difficult in the sense that requires a lot of physics background ... and he was same as me, having little or zero background in semiconductor...what make it worse for him is that his english is not helping him as well..

Dipendekkan cerita, his supervisor (SV) which is the same as my SV decided to give him extension to finish up his project...Our SV nearly failed him coz his lack of knowledge and his terrible interim report...but I told my SV to give him another a chance, coz i know he did tried and still was trying...so there he was last week, still struggling to finish up his report..he got all of the results already, but the hardest thing was to analyse and write the thesis...

LX has asked me to proof read his thesis 2 weeks ago, but I refused. This is because I was tutoring him and it will be in appropriate if I checked his english coz I will help him to correct his technical writing as well...I have offered phd students in my group to help him with the english, yes, paid of course...but nobody was interested...

so in the end, with desperation my SV asked me to help him...i was reluctant, firstly because i was and am too busy, even my work i can hardly do them all..secondly , i was down with a fever, so cant really concentrate and thirdly, i am kinda fed up with him! uhuhuh you might asked why...its because, sometimes you have to explain to him a concept in semiconductor for three times , and still he wont understand it...its not because he is stupid, its just the language barrier and the lack of the semiconductor background! Plus i am not a very patient person...

That was last wednesday that my SV asked me to help the boy, LX... He said, charged him highly, coz he deserves to be charge..and you (meaning myself) dont have to actually help him...so might as well earn some money...

So guess what, in the end, I helped him...going through his results, advising him to replot the graphs, guiding him how to analyse his results and lastly reading and correcting his thesis! Poor boy... LX told me he never has worked as hard as for this masters...

Some background of LX... he is a rich boy...well, his parents are rich, having a furniture company and exporting it to UK and europe...so his parents paid the £20,000 fees for the masters... when I asked LX why he wanted to do a master, he said, because he dont want to work in his father's company as yet..he want to be independent ...LX told me he didnt work hard at all for his degree (that was back in China), he just passed his degree... but now he determined to pass his masters as it will be a shame to go back to China failing his masters... he also told me, for the pass 9 months (of the project duration), it has not only gave him bodily tired, but also heart tired ..i laughed...i told him, that is nothing, try to do phd and be tired physically and emosionally for five years!! He quickly replied, he will never do a phd...hehe

Panjang pulak cerita ni.... akhirnya, i managed to somehow correct his thesis in 3 days...today he is on his way back to China due to his visa ended today...Honestly, the first time i read his thesis, i cant understand 80% of the thing he wrote in there...dah la demam, tambah sakit kepala baca tulisan english yg takleh difahami...not only that, banyak pulak tu technical yg salah...ayoooo, and i have to correct for all that, imagine!!

Anyhow, during the tutoring, i asked him , sentence by sentence what he meant, and when i understand it, i translate it to understandable english....unfortunately, in 3 days mana la boleh baiki semua 50 pages...so i just changed parts which are clearly wrong...and corrected some grammatical english so that the reader can read it...i would say in the end, it has improved at least 60% than the original writing he gave me...and plus i was paid, alhamdulillah :)

What is the lesson that I learned?

1) I told my SV this is tough coz his english is very hard to read...and my SV said, u think Malaysian student is very much different? ermm...honestly i dunno coz i had never marked a project in Malaysia before, but maybe there will be some students who's english is not very good...and my SV said, this a good training for me to cope with this situation :P

2) I learn that many rich boys are maybe are like LX....hidup suka2 je...semua dpt senang...for LX he was like that before jumpa my SV...LX thought it was easy to pass a MSc in UK...nope, he has to work for it... mungkin ramai gak kat mesia yg mana mak ayah kaya, anak2 hancur, tak nampak nak struggle and strive...hancur...kadang2 kene push sket org macam ni, baru mrk appreciate life..

3) After helping the boy to correct his thesis, it gives me some insight of how my SV corrected my writing...rupanya bukan mudah...appreciate gakla my SV going thro my so called 'Rubbish' english and perfecting it (oh yes, my SV says my english is rubbish...terima je la)

4) it feels good to help somebody yg dalam desperation... kesian ada gak..demam2 pun baca gak la thesis dia...kalau tak sia2 la £20,000 parents dia bayar for him to study...i will never want my parents to loose that kind of money..

5) Lastly, i cant wait to go back to IIUM and serves there...meet all the students and contribute back to my country, to my people and of course to my religion!

To conclude : I hope Mr. LX will pass his project...although i thought that the english can be improved tremendously more (and my SV agreed to give him more time just to correct on the english, but LX refused, he said, the thesis is already good)... we'll just have to wait and see..

maaf tulisan diatas campur bahasa inggeris dan melayu, tulis dalam keadaan nak cepat...jika menyakitkan mata, sila skip sahaja...

Umrah Bersama MSM extended!

Aku tidak pandai bersajak

Aku tidak pandai bersajak,
Tetapi aku ini suka membaca sajak..

Aku suka membaca hati-hati manusia,
Membaca manusia melalui sajak,
Aku suka melihat manusia berubah,
Berubah kearah yg diredhai Allah..

Aku tidak pandai bersajak,
Tetapi kadang-kadang aku terasa nak menulis sajak,
Aku kongsi dengan mereka yang aku rapat sahaja,
Aku berkongsi moga mereka merasai apa yg aku rasa...

Hati aku melonjak gembira melihat manusia berubah,
Tidak ada kata yang dapat membutirkan rasa,
Aku melihat mereka berubah,
Aku bersyukur pada Yang Maha Pemurah....

Aku ini tidak pandai mempamer rasa,
Tetapi ingin sangat meluahkan kata,
Tatkala melihat manusia-manusia,
Yang mencari-cari keredhaan Tuhannya..

Aku seakan-akan melihat,
Anak kecil yg pertama kali ke sekolah,
Ibunya bangga dan sangat ceria,
Anak-anaknya sudah bersedia merubah cara,
Demi mendapat keberkatan di dunia...

Aku harap mereka ikhlas dalam beramal,
Moga terus istiqamah membuktikan amanah,
Tidak goyah di langgar samudera,
Tidak jatuh di panah halilintar...
Terus melangkah walau perit terasa sudah....

Aku rasa dakwah semanis madu,
Maha suci Allah yang Amat Tahu,
Mengubat perasaan di kala sendu,
Alhamdulillah, Dia telah memilih aku...

Aku berdoa pada yang Berkuasa,
Moga aku pun terus jitu keikhlasannya,
Rugilah mereka yg berbuat amalnya,
Untuk di lihat, aah! aku lah jaguhnya,
Hanya untuk mendapat secubit pujian di dunia....

Fadzlin
26 january 2009

ps: Aku tahu abang Yusof pandai bersajak...masih menanti-nanti muncul sajak darinya...

Haji MSM 2008

Masjidil Haram at night

-- Rindunya saat-saat itu...tiada kesibukan dunia, seluruh jiwa dan raga khusyuk menghambakan diri kepada Pemilik Rumah Tua itu....Hidup itu hanya untuk akhirat...aku rindu saat-saat itu...bebas daripada belenggu dunia ini... Aku rindu akan Baitul Atiq itu...Rumah Allah...Tanah suci yang menjadi saksi dakwah kekasih Pencipta dunia ini... Aku rindu...

Ustaz Yusof diatas bersama dgn Dr. Alhadi dan Akhi Tahir dalam perjalanan ke Mina...

Kenangan bertalbiyah di atas bumbung bas :)



Kenangan yg tak dapat dilupakan... jika sudah biasa naik motokar, cuba pula thrill naik motokar di atas bumbung... fenomena biasa di waktu Haji... Ustaz Yusof dan ahli2 rombongan Haji MSM 2008 juga tidak ketinggalan...

Diatas, Abbad (kiri), Ustaz Mazrul (tengah) dan Ustaz Yusof

Di bawah interview dengan Dr. Alhadi sat atas bumbung ni...

Yes, unlimited supply of oxygen + air conditioning! What more can one ask?! :)

Atas bumbung van pun sesak sesak juga :)

Ustaz Mazrul pulak turn to explain what is going on ...



Rahman (kiri), Ustaz Yusof dan Rahil (Kanan)

Ni kenangan menyumbatkan diri di belakang jeep...sumbat jangan tak sumbat..hehe... Ni actually kat boot Jeep...kaki terjuntai2 semasa Jeep bergerak...pengalaman :)

Tu Ustaz Yusuf sibuk duk kira batu cukup ke 7 biji untuk di lontar jamrah...Kira jangan tak kira..

Dear Mekah, indeed you are missed!

ps: Credit to Abad for all the above photos and videos, jazakallahu khayr

Gaza in ruins

Berikut adalah video drp Al Jazeera bertajuk Gaza in Ruins - A news special


Part 1


Part 2


Part 3


My review:

Semalam tengok tv, BBC Four, rancangan Unseen Gaza.... Dalam rancangan tu journalist interview both the muslims and the jews in the UK. Yg muslims kata BBC is not showing enough of what is happening in Gaza. They said that al jazeera and other tvs shows in depth news of what happened in Gaza..while the jews in UK blame BBC for siding towards the Hamas and marah coz BBC call Hamas the militant group and not the terrorist group! So both sides are blaming BBC...what does BBC said? BBC kata mrk memberi berita tanpa prejudice and giving as accurate as possible about the news there. There are laws in UK restricting gruesome pictures to be shown on TV before 10 oclock to protect the children. Anyhow, BBC admitted that the news on the war in Gaza was not as accurate as they want it to be due to the limitation that Israel put to the journalist..No journalist is allowed to enter Gaza, they have to stay in one hill and just report from there. The BBC journalist also said that Israel is playing a propaganda war, and their PR has been preparing months before the war to answer to the international journalist and to the world.

My comment?:

I think BBC is quite neutral, but not neutral enough. There must be some pressure that Israel put to BBC to withstand some of the news to us. But hey, no worries, we still have al jazeera to report to us, uh, i wish I can understand arabic! Israel memang jahat, they just want to kill the palestinians and not just Hamas. My heart and thoughts are with the palestinians, and I want to say to them, I am sorry that I cannot do enough to help them. I also hope that God will forgive me for shortcomings. My ambition is to educate as much muslims as possible to understand their role in this earth and perhaps one day, we are strong enough to defeat the enemy of this deen...